There’s a weakness in my soul today.  Lately.  Often.

I miss my usual ways.  I’ve lost my candor.  I’ve lost confidence.  I’m tired.  Move slowly.  React slower still.

I tell myself to do things.  Make lists to do them from.  Leave the list where it sits.  Beside me, even, without an attempt to complete it.

I cannot get the kitchen table cleared.

I have no follow-up, no vim.  I don’t even remember what vigor is.

I want to say I care.  But apparently I don’t.  With a pile of work to do and the pressure of another long day looming over my head – I sit down to write instead.

Writing usually clears my head.  Lately – just another thing I never accomplish.

Connection is needed that doesn’t require debate.  Eye contact.  Interest.  Gentle, intellectual, spirit-filled.

Be careful.  I don’t have a filter right now.  But be brave.

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